As some close friends might already know, I went thru a turning point sometime end of last year. After the turning point, certain things in my life were clearer and for once in such a long time, I was feeling happy. No dark clouds were hanging over my head.
Unfortunately, I am beginning to feel sucked into the void of darkness and tumbling down the spiral stairs. For the past couple of weeks, I have been feeling that way in and out (not consistently). I try real hard to counter it. Fighting against the vacuum that is sucking. Its tough. When I go thru these certain moments, I try to stay positive by counting my blessings.
I really don't want to return to the state I was in previous. A state which I stayed in for the longest time and watch the years go by. I do not want to. But is my will strong enough to sustain this times of temptation where its easier to succumb rather than fight?
For now, my decision is to fight! Fight! the feeling away.
Chase the blues away!!!!
I will not fall into the darkness once more.
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